some sort of conclusion

It's not like I never think about you. I do. There isn't a day that goes by that the thought of you or even my Aunt and her precious baby goes through my mind. I just wish things would've worked out differently. I guess I can only blame myself for the immaturity I was dealt with dating at such a young age. It was my mistake. I was taught by my dad that being alone wasn't normal, which I've learned is really not the case. My dad is co-dependant. Unfortunatly for him, he will always be that way. I, however, will not.

I mean I can't deny that there are times lately where I feel like I need someone there. It's human nature to want someone there to hold me and love me. Just to know that someone ginuinely cares about me the same way I do about them. But all I can do is hold onto the hope that I'll find my soul mate. I really am not wanting to settle down anytime soon. I really am not sure I'm even looking for a relationship anymore...I just need to be happy, that's all I want.

It's weird usually I can't just free-write like this. It usually takes a lot more brain power for me to think of anything to write. But lately I've just had so much on my mind. I guess I'm just ready to let it free flow from my thoughts.

The other night I had a dream that it was 2012 and the world was about to end. But it had been 3 minutes after when it was supposed to end so my mom was texting me saying, "Oh well the world isn't going to end now!!" and right as I read that text my cell phone screen began becoming all blurry and I felt the air becoming harder to breathe in. It was like the world was ending I guess...Then I woke up. Then I fell back asleep and had another nightmare. That day didn't end up being a very good day lets just say! Haha!