ah on egde

I want to let you know that I've done a few things I wasn't proud of. I said a few things that hurt you. Your still the only one who knows the real me. I don't know why I hurt myself again. I've lost count of how many times I've been here. I'm the only one to blame. I'm young, but I'm not naive. I just hope no one can see how many times I've dried these tears.

I think I'm just afraid to be happy because every time I'm happy something bad happens.