I took it upon myself to decide to switch Beauty schools from Toni and Guy Hairdressing Academy to the Bellingham Beauty School. I really don't feel like I'll be regretting this. I don't want a big name on my resume I just want to be respected. I don't need to make a lot of money to be happy. That is not who Anna is. All I need is enough money to survive. I'm real so I'm standing up for what I believe in and staying at Toni and Guy would make me fake. I just don't want to be representing a company that I don't believe stands for something I actually agree with.
From the outside looking in, Toni and Guy seemed like a dream school to me. I won't lie the feeling I got signing the contract I did with them was undeniable. I never felt so happy in my life. But the feeling I'm getting knowing I'm terminating my education there feels even better. I felt so trapped a week ago. Like there wasn't an ounce of myself left. All I really want is to be able to be myself. You can't do that there. I felt like my life was becoming this huge lie. I really never realized how transparent I was becoming. I started talking like other girls there and dressing like them. I was seriously disgusted with myself, when I looked in the mirror I really felt nasty. I never was part of a world where you had to become something so fake. Ugh just thinking about it makes me sick to my stomach.
All I know now is that i'm happy to be on my way to something much better. I don't know if writing this will affect anything or change anyone's opinion on Toni and Guy. It really isn't my intentions to do so. I just really needed to get off my chest exactly how I felt about them.
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