At times this life is confusing

Well I believe life is been very complicated for me lately. I don't know if it is because of the fact that I am alone and not with a significant other or if it is because I'm just not happy with myself. I do realize I don't need someone else in my life to be happy. I won't end up like my mom and what not. It's not my thing. I won't let fear run my life for me.

I'm coming to also realize that life is what I make it. If I surround myself with positive actions and behavior then I'm going to have a positive environment and attitude. So lately, I've just been hanging with the family. They are amazing people and I'm so lucky to have them in my life. If I didn't have them in my life I would be going crazy right now. I'm coming down off my anti depressants so I've been particularly depressed lately but I'm trying to think as positive as possible because I'm not willing to take them anymore. They alter me into this zombie-like person and it's not fun at all. I'd rather just be me. Be Anna. I don't need a pill to justify who I really am inside. I can figure myself out, I will not self medicate...I refuse from this day on.