Nov. 9, 2008
Things are finally looking up now. Even though sergio has to live with his mom and me at his grandma's. We are almost 2 hours apart. But it feels like another state. I miss him so much I ust wish he was here to hold and comfort me. Every night I'm going to start praying that things keep getting better and that someday soon we can be together again.

(don't worry I'll catch you...)

you worry way too much
every part of you hasn't fallen
look up, not down
your life hasn't yet hit the ground
just give it time
i know you could turn
it all around
hold on to me, make things last
i want things to stay this way
it seems so much easier
with you on my side
i'd get everything done right
i won't leave without putting up a fight

YOU WALKED AWAY from every bitter mistake you always caused
these flaws that now seem so perfect
stay with me we will make this work
please never leave me like you did last time
you hurt me horribly and now you can't take things back

to whom it may concern, look, i know i made a mistake. i figure you may not read this but if there is a slight chance you might, well i'm taking it. Don't sit there and tell me you never want to talk to me again. it's like all feelings were lost once i said what i did and i couldn't take it back. once i made my mistakes i'm not perfect and i never claimed that. i don't expect to be forgiven. why am i even trying. you probably don't want to hear anything i have to say. if i really don't matter to you now i'm really not sure i ever really mattered in the first place, right?