You can't love me

For once I'd like to believe that I do have a father figure out there. One that is willing to show me what a true father is like. But I have yet to know if such a thing is even real. Lisa has shown me what a mother is like along with a few other people such as Aunt Jen. I really can't believe that most the friends in my life have shown me what family truly means. I never expected family to be as important to me as it is now. But as time goes on I have begun to realize that in the end all you really do have is yourself and you have to learn to grow on your own. Especially when the parents who raised you don't even want to see your face anymore because of fear of how they think they may have raised you.

It's a sad thing, knowing my dad doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. But slowly, I'm actually learning to accept it. If this is what my dad wants then I want nothing to do with him either. Any father that would treat his own blood, his own child like this...doesn't deserve the time of day from me. Or even a single tear. I can't go on trying to make my dad accept me for who I am. It just won't happen. I am Ariana and if he can't just love me for me then this just means he can't even love himself.